~Chin Up~
Thursday, May. 15, 2008, 1:28 p.m.

I feel like crying all the time lately, and it's not like me to be this way. This isn't a nice thing to say but sometimes I think I would have rather died from leukemia then go blind.

It's hard not to feel ripped off about this. No one asked me if it was ok with me to stop seeing. SG must be in denial, because instead of taking Jake a little extra till I catch my breath. Nope, He's decided to move to Alberta instead. I've been on my own since I got pregnant with Jake. It's just taken me such a long time to realize it. It's like I have no appetite.Easy way to lose a few extra lbs. I have so many things swirling through my brain.I worry far too much than is healthy for me. I feel sick to my stomach. So I go blind? Now what? Even home made tapioca pudding wouldn't repair my battered soul.