~Far Far away~
Wednesday, May. 14, 2008, 5:28 p.m.

My heart is breaking into a million tiny pieces.

I sang my heart out today at the liquor store and made $52.00 in 3 hours doing what I love second most to my loving my kids.p>

I'm so on the edge it's becoming frightenly obvious to me.
I sometimes feel like all it will take is a look from someone, or one more thing in my life to go wrong and I may snap and never recover.

It's like sometimes I just want to stop fighting for every little and big thing in my life. I just want to let it over take me. This thing that nips at my heels. I'm tired. I have nothing to give anymore. I want all the shit to stop. But, I know better. The shit won't stop. Somehow I will keep fighting for every thing good in my life.
Some day when things seem just a little easier I'll realize that I have become a better person for having not given up on myself.

Some day far far away.
~H~