~No Implants for Me, thanks~
Thursday, Jan. 17, 2008, 9:26 a.m.

I woke up this morning with the thought that maybe I'm just not his type. Maybe his type is blonde hair and big boobs. I have neither. And I'm not the kind of woman that's interested in changing everything about myself to accomodate a man. In a nutshell there isn't much hope where he's concerned. I really need to give up on any thought of he and I in any form. He's only made it way too clear how he feels about me and my children.

I think I will continue dating. I'll just make it very clear that I am not looking for anything serious.

It's strange I don't feel all that sad about "SG" anymore. In fact I feel more happy then I have been in a long time. I miss the friendship part of our relationship, but nothing more. Maybe I'm just becoming numb.

In a strange way I feel free, so why would I want to start another relationship with another man?
I don't have the energy or the time to start over. I hope I don't become cynical, and jaded. I don't like being around people like that myself. It brings me down.

~H~