~Tapioca Utopia~
Tuesday, Jan. 15, 2008, 10:28 p.m.

I know a man that makes the most incredible tapioca pudding from scratch. God, I'd kill for a bowl of it right about now.
It's too bad he see's me as the antichrist right now.

I think I made a terrible mistake awhile back and I'm not sure I can redeem myself now.

I had two very different men in my life. And I chose to go to the one that was more familiar to me. The one that had already broken my heart once.
If I had truly loved myself back then I would have chosen the second man. I would have known the first was going to break my heart for a second time. I would have known the second was going to treat my heart with care.

What an idiot I have been.

I am paying for my mistake.

I don't think the second man is going to give me a second chance. Not now not ever.

what a fool I am.

I'm not ever going to be truly happy now.

I'm never going to have the chance to find out if my true instincts were right about him. He probably was the one, and now I'll never know for sure.
~H~