~This too shall pass~
Friday, Dec. 28, 2007, 12:19 a.m.

It isn't easy for me to put on a brave face and act like everything is ok with me when it isn't. Why try?
Thank God I have developed some self comforting techniques. If it weren't for that I'd be an even bigger mess. Don't get me wrong a mess I am. I'm just saying it could be even more severe. I sing and sing some more then I take my singing and my skating and combine the two. And I surround myself with all seven of my children. Children are good for my soul. If it weren't for these seven gifts I would slowly slip in to the biggest depression of my life. I'm close but I know I'm not going to slip over the edge. Sometimes the simplest of things can be the biggest of life savers for me.
The thought occurs to me in the in between times that having a safe, best friend around would help to ease my pain and suffering but then reality sets in and I accept the unnacceptable reality that I have no best friend that would drop everything to come to my rescue. Yes, It's sad but oh so true.
So I carry on. Not happily mind you but even this too shall pass, right? I sure as fucking hope so.
That's all I have to say about that.
H